Sunday, 23 October 2011

Love Is In the Air

When you are a mother, you become a better daughter.

In a lot of ways, that s true. Every beautiful moment spent with precious daughter gives a glimps of what beautiful feeling mom probably had with me. However possessive I be, however protective, the surge of affection, extreme worries, unlimited love, ability to forgive! Subhanallah.. And I thought mom doesn't know me as well as my friends did back in high school. That only my bestfriends know me best. How silly! Mom probably doesn't know about all my teenage crush or friends' troubles, but she knows my cloudy days. I think, even though mom never says it, but she knows best. And that makes me want to bawls over T__T
I love mom so much.

And today I got another lesson... A wife can know only so much about her husband, but a mother! Give a mother a few hours with her kid and she knows either he's happy or troubled... And again the level of patience! Everyday is a a new lesson.  And I am nothing if not a learner. I learn everyday and will always be learning, Insha Allah.

A mother's love is very powerful, it's a different kind of love altogether from love towards one's another half. You give and don't expect to receive back. In fact, sometimes you expect to receive the perfect opposite and accept it calmly so as to allow the child to learn her lesson. It's very bizarre for a first time mummy. But full of contentment. Shouting, yes, that too. But the kiss and hugs from my pumpkin pie is heartmelting. Let's not break the mood talk about adolescent yet, shall we. Let enjoy toddlerhood first. Just beautiful.

Love your mom. I love mine! :)

Monday, 17 October 2011


Funny to start a blog this way. I just wanna vent. Or talk about venting. Specifically venting out your anger from your system. When you are mad, you feel like you want to hurl anything in your path, scream your lungs out, and well, whoever unlucky enough to cross your path will certainly feel your wrath for the simplest mistake, such as existing. But when you can't do any of those, what do you do? Venting your feeling the 'nice' way. The craziest thing that helps me to channel my anger is cleaning. I'll clean everything. wash the bathroom, mop the floor, sweep the ceiling fan, fold laundry.. until the anger fads away. Until I get tired. But be warned, do not cross my path. I've warned my dearest not to come close at these critical times, as I really don't want to inflict any injury on anyone's feeling. It works for me..

Sometimes I simply get away for everyone and sit at a corner. But this is not so effective as I will be focusing all my energy on my anger, unlike household chores where over time the tasks will overtake my brain. I tried reading, but there's no use. I can't read a word. Reading Quran also helps, Alhamdulillah. Spiritually of course it helps, and physically after reciting it as loud as I want, I simply got tired. Venting accomplised.

The latest, I discovered that just talking about what i feel at the moment also works. Well, as ethics call, I can't tell a soul about what's disturbing me. Thus simply telling someone that I feel mad, unhappy or demotivated helps. it's like magic. Like i take that negativity, place it in the box and  put away where the sun will never shine on it. and that's enough. And I am thankful, Alhamdulillah. Allah is Great. Thank You, Allah. your gift is the greatest of all. And my heart now feel heavy with contentment. Alhamdulillah.