Re-read That!

Do you re-read a book you have read before? I do.

Sometimes, the story change. As per my point of view in life, perhaps? Sometimes there is a point in the story that I didn't quite get until that second or third reading. When it actually happened in my life.. that totally change everything. Total empathy with the story.

Sometimes I hate the book on the first time. After a few years, perhaps, it may not seem so bad. I can justify the 'badness' of the story. Or I love it the couple of times I read it, then WHAM! Hate it hate it hate it on the third reading. Too happily-ever-after-ly? Too sad? The story just change, at least for me.

So after sometimes I tend to re-read a book I've read again. Of course I can vaguely remember the storyline and what to expect from the book.. but the feeling sometimes change. But some books stays forever. Like "If You Can See Me Now' by Cecilia Ahern. I just love her books. They have magic.

I guess the tendency to re-read books comes from frugality. I can't buy books everytime! I wish I can , though. Books are expensive around here. At least the kind of books that I like do. But I gotta READ! I just can't just sit around doing nothing without reading. The sheer boredom! So now frugality has turned to habit. And I kinda like it. And I'll have my fave parts of a fave book that I'll thumb straight to it. Or I'll skip parts that I don't really enjoy.. I feel bad doing that sometimes.. but I can't take sadness too many time, surely. It'll get to me. There were times when my hubby will ask 'That must be a sad book' when he saw me crying. He knows me very well. :')

Anyway, I got 4 books yesterday on a Sale.Yippee!! Finished reading last night. I makes me miss my bestfriends and all the times we had together.. The is some old saying, 'Even if we lost it, at least we have had it once'. Or at least that's how I thought it sound lol!

Thus, my love affair with books. Not many, but well loved. Cheers, my loves!

Be nice, thank you.

Just because you are blind
doesn't mean the world has no colour

saying mean things about others
doesn't make you a nicer person

screaming 'I'm lonely' at the top of your lungs
doesn't make loneliness go way

being nice is so easy
but is it the same for you?

Being a Mother and Daughter

As I read through the development of my kid, I came across some things that make me remember things in my life. What it was like when I was young. Like this one article, how kids feel safe and secure when they smell their parents, or see them, or touch them, or just being near. I remember waking up in the middle of the night, scared witless, monsters following me everywhere, and nobody was awake. No chance of waking up my brother to keep me company, he was a worse scaredicat than I was lol! So I went from room to room, squeezing in with anyone of my 4 older brothers and sisters, hoping to hitchhike on their sweet, undisturbed dream. Alas! To no avail. So what did a 5 year old to do? Dragged the blankie and slept at mom's and dad's feet. Until now, I never even remember what happened in the morning. It was that peaceful.

As I look at my daughter's growth each day, her being so happy and healthy, I hope that she will love me always. I misunderstood my mom as not loving me, not caring, doesn't know me at all and most of all, doesn't understand me, up until I had my baby. That was when I was 27 years old. Phew! That was a long wait for a mom! I hope my kids will always know that I love them, that no matter what happens, I'm always there for them. That even through their rebellious teenage years, they always remember that.. Mummy is always here.. That I love you..

I said it before and I say it again, being a mother makes you a better daughter. I love you, mom! ^_^



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Food for Thought or Food for Life?

I am warming my hands on a hot cup of coffee, a newly discovered favourite drink for life. I know, I know, everyone's been drinking coffee for centuries, so this is totally old news. But it is for me:) It's great to know I won't have headaches after half a cup of coffee, or feel a bit dizzy on a sip of latte. So now I drink it anytime I can lay my hands on it, even went hunting for good ones in shops after shops with dear hubby ;P
He's probably the main reason I started drinking coffee, as he doesn't like tea so much ( which I totally love! ), and cocoa drinks are too expensive these days.. I've to learn how to make yummy coffee, and for that I've to taste.. and BAM! I CAN DRINK COFFEE!! Who would have thought? My sister was even surprised when I told her I drink coffee lol.

I have thought that our taste buds are arranged around what we eat when we are young, like if your mother cooks spicy food all the time, it's most likely that you will like spicy food. But of course, food tasting is always an adventure. For the conservative eaters, there is no way he'll try that japanese ramen! I do like to venture into new kind of food, I'm alright with takoyaki:) But some wouldn't touch it lol. The smell is enough to keep them away! 

What do you know, taste buds are a weird species. Give it to me and I'll say, Mamma Mia! That's so good! But give it to the next person, urghh!! There are still a lot of food that I wince even thinking about it lol! My top no no is corn pudding, corn juice or anything corn that is cook disguise in food! Ughh!! Next is fruit cake! In short, please don't cook fruit for me please! And no, I don't like apple pie. Sorry...

Having said that, I am now a less picky eater than before. I've to admit, my pregnancy has diverse my culinary experience a lot lol! Actually, I am like any other person who eat selective veggie types.. But during my pregnancy, I can't get enough of veggies!! I'll scout for the shop that has the most veggies on display and pile my plates with them. I'll devour them lushly! Alhamdulillah, now my daughter can't get enough of it too. Give her to choose between a slice of tomato and a piece of chicken, she'll pick tomato any day! (Though she's not so keen on carb. Should I be worried?)

Anyway, more ways than one, my tastebuds has grown.. and become a better person ( is it a person?lol ) And I love it! Now I won't be seen as a picky eater anymore, yeay! AND I won't miss out on a lot of food, too! Double yeay!

Are you a picky eater? Have you miraculously changed your eating habit ever? Do you looove food? :D

Yesterday

Sometimes I remember yesterday
The beautiful lights, the laughing faces
the adorable friends and talked-into-midnights
It makes me yearn for yesterday

Oh heart!
Yearn not for what you don't have
Hope not for what's not within grasp
Look around
And find
The love of today
The hugs you've receive today
The sun shines and smiles...

The farthest.. is the past..
tomorrow.. is still far away..
today.. make the most of today...

Life and Thankfulness

When I am happy in life, I forgot
A lot of things
Often I forgot to be thankful
Even for the happiness I feel inside

But when I am sad
Or angry
Or frustrated
I tend to look at the brighter things in life
So that I can smile again
So that my heart can heal
And I feel life is bearable again

Thankful for the sweet little smile
And the little hand that always reach out to me
And no matter what
She'll come to me
That she loves me
And needs me

For this peace I have
That I haven't felt before
That rage, sadness and frustration can't take away

That I'm not sick
Healthier than ever
I am thankful

I hope
To remember this
When I'm happy
Not to forget
For those who are thankful, will be rewarded with more
I wish to be thankful.